Here's my case. Of old I used to love him
This same unseen friend, before I knew:
Dream there was none like him, none above him, –
Wake to hope and trust my dream was true.
Loved I not his letters full of beauty?
Not his actions famous far and wide?
Absent, he would know I vowed him duty;
Present, he would find me at his side.
Pleasant fancy! for I had but letters,
Only knew of actions by hearsay:
He himself was busied with my betters;
What of that? My turn must come some day.
`Some day' proving – no day! Here's the puzzle.
Passed and passed my turn is. Why complain?
He's so busied! If I could but muzzle
People's foolish mouths that give me pain!
`Letters?' (hear them!) `You a judge of writing?
Ask the experts! – How they shake the head
O'er these characters, your friend's inditing –
Call them forgery from A to Z!
`Actions? Where's your certain proof' (they bother)
`He, of all you find so great and good,
He, he only, claims this, that, the other
Action – claimed by men, a multitude?'
I can simply wish I might refute you,
Wish my friend would, – by a word, a wink, –
Bid me stop that foolish mouth, – you brute you!
He keeps absent, – why, I cannot think.
Never mind! Though foolishness may flout me,
One thing's sure enough: 'tis neither frost,
No, nor fire, shall freeze or burn from out me
Thanks for truth – though falsehood, gained – though lost.
All my days, I'll go the softlier, sadlier,
For that dream's sake! How forget the thrill
Through and through me as I thought `The gladlier
Lives my friend because I love him still!'
Ah, but there's a menace someone utters!
`What and if your friend at home play tricks?
Peep at hide-and-seek behind the shutters?
Mean your eyes should pierce through solid bricks?
`What and if he, frowning, wake you, dreamy?
Lay on you the blame that bricks conceal?
Say "At least I saw who did not see me,
Does see now, and presently shall feel"?'
`Why, that makes your friend a monster!' say you:
`Had his house no window? At first nod,
Would you not have hailed him?' Hush, I pray you!
What if this friend happen to be – God?